Seth Sara

This time tomorrow, I’ll be on my way to Romantic Paris to meet the Man of my dreams! Ya right.. dreamt of him a few times counted too… =D 2 months have passed! Thank you for waiting with me. Hee! Time flew by and I have been kept so busy, I’ve yet to pack my bags! I must say, these months have been an easy to pass test, which I believed we passed with flying colors! Our 15 mins talk daily has been our source of energy and sustenance. Ok, let’s not go into details about our 1 hour of icq at night… (cos it’s during his work hours… and we don’t want his bosses to read, do we? shh…)

I feel rejuvenated. Different. Elated. Accomplished. Ah.. a wide mix of emotions really. I feel as if we’ve walked a long way together, even thou we have been so far apart. This is way different from the LDRs I’ve experienced. No insecurities, no sense of loss (right, except for those times I had to pay the bills and made a mess, or the times I busted our bank account, and not forgetting the night I found a lizard in our bathroom…), not even loneliness cos he’s so near, right next to my heart. At times I feel like I was single. Free to do things without accountability. But yet, I know I am loved. And I know too that I’ll enjoy just as much, and even more if he’s around. However, that did not make me moan being alone. I enjoy being alone, shopping alone. It’s like he’s there (And he was! All the while smsing… thank you Starhub for free smses!) It’s when we are alone that we truly appreciate the beauty of company. Heh. And I had fun catching up with my friends. And bonding with the Maid … who’s been tempted into joining me in my new hobby venture… hiak hiak hiak… =D

I now understand too why people may stray in a LDR. It’s really inevitable. The loneliness and the uncertainty of what the other is doing. Mainly loneliness and the lack of touch, I suppose. Right. To be fair. I wouldn’t have been this secure if he were to be there alone with some pretty lady colleague. Thank God for engineers and their mainly-male environments. =p However, I must say that commitment really does play a big part to securities.. Which is why, without commitments, people in LDRs are likely to stray… The lack of physical touch and communication is a real test of the spirit. And if there happens to be someone that comes along who is able to give you that… ah… that is how the verse “The mind is willing but the soul is weak” came about… Haa… Now that I think of it. I must be the only human being in the world who loves the word c-o-m-m-i-t-m-e-n-t! Cos with it, everything’s changed! Hearts are bonded together, never to be torn apart.

Hallelujah! PARIS HERE I COME!